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This disease, why did it choose me?

Fate. It can’t be put into words.

I want to make a time machine and go back in time.

I just finished watching this japs drama "1 Litre of Tears".
A beautiful drama based on a true story about a real life struggle of a 15 years old girl named Ikeuchi Aya who suffered from an incurable disease called spinocerebellar degeneration which will slowly make the body unable to move.

Aya kept writing on her diary until she could no longer hold a pen. But she lived her life to the fullest. This series is really a touching story, I even cried almost on every episodes…can u believe it, I just couldnt control my tears and it keeps dropping..hauhaha probably a litre of tears. Dont worry I wont spoiled the series..ahuuaha. The influences she had on everyone, the reality that she had to face at such young age, knowing that she will be unable to walk, write, speak, and finally bedridden, she’s a strong girl.

Mannn this story is really inspired me, I realize how beautiful and important life is and to treasure everything in it. Thankful that I’ve perfect body, can still enjoy falling in love and still can do alot more things. I really recommend this series, its 11 episodes and rating 10/10 for me, if you wanna watch some trailers just youtube it.

Thank u God for the days u gave me. Up until now I can still stand up n walk my life. Rite now I just feel this big empty hole inside my heart, uncertainity about my future or what its gonna be, its all feel like blurring to me. I cant seeee it…loneliness exist deep inside me. Maybe I stand out in the crowd, laughing out loud (lol), making jokes with my friends jus to cheer up d day..hahaha..and actually Im kind of feeling alone sometimes. How can I be so weak like this, I hate the feeling, I hate it. Give me excitement Lord, give me joy, feel my emptiness, get rid of my worries. I wanna hav my spirit bursting out of me, rock n rolling this life. I always know that you’re watching me all the time but Im just ignoring You n do whatever I like, tried to use my own thinking but I admit it now I cant, I’ve sinned n screwed up countless times,  yet U still on my side. At least I still hav faith in U, dats what keeps me going. You’re the only reason that Im living right now, there’s no going back !!!